Well, There Goes 10 Months of My Life. [2011-now and ongoing.]

You all know my best friend, right? Well, I have a feeling that it's all falling apart. I've been questioning this for a while, but we've always pulled through as best friends. Let's just call this girl Jamie [cause her name is hidden for privacy reasons]. Jamie and I have been best friends for 10 months, and we've been through some crap that has nearly caused the end of our friendship. She's also had a crush on my crush, dated one of my ex-boyfriends that I hated, told me how horribly some people have thought of me, and more.

She even made me cry by telliing me how the guy I really liked was dating someone else, when really he wasn't and she just wanted to see how I'd react. However, with our pain, has come the great time: sleepovers, our talks, and the like. I valued those over our bad times, and really got past those. After all of that crap, I was still her friend, and for the most part, she was mine. I have snapped on her, but that was rare.

Still, since Friday, I felt our friendship really fall into shambles. She told me how other people told her "Why hang out with Epiphany? You're cooler than her!". She told me that she wouldn't stop hanging out with me. So, all weekend, I felt hurt. I thought everything that has happened, and I really felt our friendship become smaller than it was when we started.

However, I gave it some thought, and decided that I should forgive her. We got into an argument today. It was over me being really upset about me messing up a pizza, and I said some profanities [as I usually do when I am upset]. Let me preface what I am about to say by saying this-Jamie's family is extremely religous. So, I said "god damnit" because I was so upset. She requested that I stopped using that word around her, because it was so horrible, and "blessed" me.

I replied that I have the right to the Freedom of Speech [Citing: The American Constitution- The First Amendment].....and that I could say whatever I wanted and she didn't have a right to control me. She appeared to hang up on me.....or the phone disconnected. I hung up. I called her back to see if it was just her phone disconnecting....she didn't answer. Nor has she called me back in all night.

I am sick and tired of this.....but now I have a descision to make. Once I make this descison, it won't be easy. I don't have to explain a damn thing...but I'd like to. I have had friendship problems over the past year, and I am just ready to live my life alone [or at least, with just me and my family]. Now, I know that "god damn" is a horrible word to say....especially on a Sunday....but I was a bit upset.

Either one of these 3 things happened:

1: Her religious family doesn't want me around anymore...
2: She is upset and doesn't want me around anymore....
3: Her phone disconnected [this I doubt though].

Life has given me too much of a hardship. I must think....

Epiphany Thomas