July 15th,2009/July 15th,2010

Song listened to at beginning of writing this blog, (iTunes shuffle chooses these songs): "Make it So"-The Dickies, from Idjit Savant

It was the one year anniversary of the death of my kitten on July 15th,2009. I awoke sometime after 7:00 that morning (I think it was around 7:05-7:12), still shooken up from the 2 nightmares I had that night. One nightmare was of me in a log cabin. There was a black alarm digital alarm clock that said "3:01". I was trying to turn the radio to find the alternative rock station Q101 (Chicagoland radio station), but instead I got static. I believe that at the end of the dream, there was something screaming at me which abruptly woke me from my sleep.

So, I think to myself, "Ok, back to sleep, maybe I can get a good dream this time." Unfortunately, I didn't have a better/good dream. I instead continued to have nightmares. In this nightmare,I looked in the mirror, but I couldn't see my own face. Then, the grim reaper came behind me and pushed me into the bathtub...but while I was being pushed in the bathtub, I realized I was dreaming. I tried to remember what I could about lucid dreaming, and I screamed "Jimmy,Jimmy,Jimmy!" and tried to wait for Jimmy Chamberlin to appear and save me from this lucid nightmare (as I am a huge fan of his), but instead I just fell into the bathtub to die.

Sure enough in the months to follow, I learned some freaky stuff that was tied into those 2 nightmares that I previously hadn't learned. I learned that Jonathan Melvoin,keyboardist of the Smashing Pumpkins,had his funeral on July 15th. He also died in room 301 (SOURCE: The Smoking Gun) on the night of July 12th,1996 (I was born at 7:12 PM). Jimmy Chamberlin was told to stick Jonathan Melvoin in a cold shower/bathtub to save him. :O Haunting coincidences.

On July 15th on this year,I woke up in near tears. I must've almost cried about 4 times. THe day turned better when I planned to hang out with my best friend,Tara, the very next day. :D Also, I went to the gym and saw my "gym crush" there. (*blushes*)

And sure enough, I drempt of Jonathan Melvoin that very same night. (In this dream, he was a highly saught after cable man!) :D

To a great future,
Epiphany Thomas. :)

Delsym Reality [2009]

It was October 2009, and I had horrible allergies. I was coughing a lot (I can't remember how many times an hour or day)...and therfore,my mom went out it the drugstore to get a powerful cough syrup called "Delsym". I didn't know that the active ingredient in the medicine called dextromethorphan (DXM for short) was a hallucinogen in the dissociative class. To make matters seem even more disasterous, I went to school the morning I took the Delsym for my cough. In addition, I hadn't eaten anything before I took the Delsym. The Delsym was grape (Purple).

I went to school feeling fine at first, but by the time lunch rolled around (11:35AM),I felt dissociated and not in reality. I even forgot I was in school, and began to see this Purple image when I closed my eyes. I was in a dreamlike state, feeling half awake and half dead (sleepy/tired). Everyone's loud talking seemed slowed and slurred, and I felt kinda high (in reality,I was robo tripping my brains out w/o my knowledge at the time). I told someone that I forgot I was in school,and that person said "You're lucky!".

By band time (which is directly after lunch),I almost fell asleep on the bass drum. My band teacher began to get a fiery temper upon seeing me almost fall asleep, calling it "disrespectful", but she probably didn't know about the Delsym thing. I promised her it wouldn't happen again. As I went up to my locker my good male friend tried to scare me, and I felt this strange sensation all over my body that replaced the normal scared/shocked feeling I got when he would "scare" me. It was a numbing sensation that was hard to describe...yet easy to remember.

The Delsym high wore off by the time I got home, and I told my mother about the Delsym high over the phone. My mom was angry that no one notified her about the fact that I almost fell asleep on the bass drum. Also, she said I probably took too much Delsym on accident.

I still take Delsym for a cough, but not too much. Here's a psychedelic Smashing Pumpkins instrumental to go with the nature of DXM and this blog:

Welcome to my blog! [2010]

Hello and welcome to this beautiful blog of mine! My name is Epiphany Thomas. This blog is for memories of/confessions of mine. It's crazy how my life has evolved,especially over the past 2 years.

Enjoy this blog, please comment when you can,and as always, I enjoy feedback. :)

Cheers and Love,
Epiphany L. Thomas.